First I'd like to share a bit about my past experiences of abuse, but
my focus will mainly be God's love, forgivness, mercy and strength He
gives us to walk the road of lie.
I came from a long background of abuse, staring with my own dad, from a
VERY young age up to the age of 15. If he wasn't touching me in sexual
ways, every 6 weeks while I was in grade school I'd get strapped with
his thin leather belt. The awsome part is that God took a hold of my
life at the age of 27, as a result of my younger sisters suecidal death.
Two years later while I was serving overseas in missionary work, my dad
gave his heart to the Lord,2 years later he ask me to forgive him, and
of course I did. Who am I not to forgive? God forgave me, and as His
child I am to do likewise.
2 years later he went home to be with the Lord an Praise his name I
WILL see my dad again some day.
At the age of 32 I married and stayed that way for 17 years, in a
nightmare of abuse to my 3 awesome children and myself. My x claimed to be a
christian when we married, only God knows his heart, I am NOT his
judge. After asking him a number of times to go to councelling with me to
save our marriage, and meeting with his refusal each time, I had no
other choice but to leave, and yes divorce him. I have forgiven him but,
he still lives in denial I don not feel it's wise to even entertain the
thought of us ever being together again.
There is SO much I could share, but can only scratch the surface at
this time. In closing I just want to say, that BECAUSE of God's
protection, love and grace and forgiveness, He has sustained and strengthened me,
for His glory. I am totally sold out for the Lord and I know He allows
certain things in our life to strengthen our faith in Him. I can
promise you, it has not been an easy road to travel but I know that God has
been there every step of the way.
God is still in the process of healing some of my very mangled and
battered emotions, but in His tender touch on my life He continues to heal
me. As I learn each day to keep my eyes LOCKED on Him, He becomes my
strength and Healer. May God bless and comfort and strengthen any one who
might read this. To GOD be the GLORY for the great things He HAS done
and will continue TO do. He began a work and HE will finish it.
In His everlasting grip and grace,